I Only Tried to Worship You
I only tried to worship You
Even as I loved other loves
When I tried to put a smile on their faces,
It was only Your Pleasure I truly desired.
When I held back my tongue
as their words scarred me,
I did not lash out
Because I was worshipping You
If I held on too long
Or left too early
In my despair and in my rage
I only tried to worship You
I only walked again
Broken heart in hands
I hoped and I tried again
As worship for You
When I begged to be fixed
It was only
because I wanted to be fit
To worship You proper
If I asked for a husband
Or for children
I wanted to love and serve them
Because I wanted to worship
just You
In my outpouring
Of tears that turned into poetry
Of sobs that turned into supplication
It was all my forms of worship
Through my many earnest mistakes
And in my shaky steps
I hope You knew
I only tried to worship You
